December 22

"God could not be everywhere, and therefore he made mothers."

You don't know how happy she was, when you cried for the first time right after you were born to the world, after 9 months she hold your weight in her body. You owe her for every sweat she wasted that day. You can't imagine how the pain was, she willed to feel it, just to see you alive.

You don't know how happy she was, when she saw you growing up. You accompany her to a market, and she told you about any kinds of vegetables and fruits. She taught you barely everything, sincerely. She's the reason you could talk, walk, run, bite and else. But when she asked you to teach her how to operate a computer, you told her to pay you for that, and she accepted it. You should've been ashamed, you didn't even pay her for those reasons you can be like this right now.

You don't know how happy she was, when she told you that you like the sandwich she made for your snack. You don't know how happy she was, when you told her about your friends at school, how you share your snacks and your stories about your puppies. You don't know how happy she was, when you were accepted to the best high school. You don't know how happy she was, when you told her the school was amazing, or you asked her to help you do your homework.

But you don't know how sad she was, when you stopped eating her food and told her when you arrived home, "I already had my lunch at school". Or when you refused her after she asked you to accompany her to a market, because you have your own plan to hang out with your high school friends. Or when you have a boyfriend, and you let her alone at home while you were out for a dinner with your boyfriend.

She believes you even when you lied. When you said you were at your friend's house to study together, while the truth was you were at the cinema with your boyfriend. She let you go because she thought it must be good for your score. Because she's the one who believes you when your enemies slander you. And she's the one who comes close to you and tells you everything's okay, when your friends stay away from you. She's the one who tells you're beautiful when the whole world mock at you because you look like a beast.

And when your date dumps you, she's the one who catches your back and rises you up again, and loves you for the rest of her life.

Ingatkah elo, waktu beliau berhutang beberapa rupiah kepada elo untuk bayar taksi, dan lo menagihnya secara paksa supaya beliau cepat-cepat membayarnya? Terus lo pikir hutang lo atas kehidupan dan pelajaran selama ini kepada dia sudah lunas? Lo pikir berapa rupiah yang beliau keluarkan untuk biaya hidup lo per bulan selama bertahun-tahun sampe nanti lo menikah dan menjalani hidup baru sendiri? Dan lo masih mengeluhkan soal gadget yang lo pengen ke beliau, atau uang yang menurut lo kurang waktu lo mau pergi jalan-jalan sama temen-temen lo ke mall. Lo pikir semudah apa menguras keringat buat nafkahin lo?

Beliau pikir gak apa-apa jika lo gak bisa membayar semua yang beliau sudah berikan kepada lo, maupun itu berupa harta, cinta maupun nyawa. Beliau pikir gak apa-apa jika lo udah mencoba mencari semua harta di seluruh jagat raya ini tapi lo gak mendapatkan apa-apa untuk lo kasih ke beliau. Beliau pikir gak apa-apa jika lo hanya bisa memberi sesuatu yang menurut lo belum cukup untuk membayar hutang-hutang lo terhadap beliau. Karena beliau pikir dengan melihat lo hidup dengan bahagia, itu sudah cukup untuk membayar semua yang beliau sudah berikan untuk lo selama lo hidup.

You don't know, just "thank you" and "I love you mom", could make her smile and cry happy tears. She forgives you for every mistakes you made, even you don't apologize.

Happy your day, mom.
December 22, 2010