December is the only month I've always waited for after March. Natal dan tahun baru... Hari perayaan favorit gue. Gue bukan orang yang merayakan Hari Natal, tapi gue suka suasana Natal yang damai. Ya, selain Home Alone yang bolak-balik ditayangkan di tv, begitu juga Spongebob Squarepants edisi Natal, dan semua film edisi Natal. And how department stores impressed me with those X-mas accesories. I love Christmas! And I love all of the Christiants in my neighborhood. Every Christmas night, I come to their house one by one, give them gifts and greet them. They always have a different Christmas tree every year, and different cookies! But some said, seorang muslim gak boleh mengunjungi orang yang lagi merayakan hari Natal, but please... This is the way I thank to them, for all the cakes they gave when we celebrate Idul Fitri. They respect us a lot, then why don't we do the same thing? New year eve! Parties, fireworks, BBQs, cheers, friends, warmth... The time when I flashback all of the moments in a year, thanking God for every happiness and sadness, change the old habit and be a better person.
Hi, my name is Nadira and this is December.
Someone is going to have their birthday. Dea si temen gue bilang, orang-orang ganteng ulang tahun di bulan Desember. Man, gue setuju! My dad is going to be 50 this year! I'm so excited and I plan to make "The 50 Wishes Your Daughter Want You To Be" and "stop being a smoker!" will be at the top of the list. Can't hold this happy tears, dad :'-) Hm, but I just wonder how can I make the list, I've just got this idea. I got to prepare it correctly. Just so you know that my Dad is the only one who have more than 10 jobs (cause he can do barely everything!) and answer every question I ask. He's the best man ever, he's the best role model ever, and he's my dad! Ya, orang-orang ganteng ulang tahun di bulan Desember... Sugar. He's easy to be forgiven, but hard to be forgotten. Where did you get the stuff to make me can hardly forget you, shit? Ignore this.
Hi, my name is Nadira and I'm going to be fifteen.
In 72 days from now, this kiddo will turn to fifteen. My freshman year in my future senior high school. "cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them, and when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall, I've found that time can heal most anything" (Taylor Swift - Fifteen). I don't find it at fifteen, I find it at thirteen, I was too little to be fell down in a hole I never knew it was made, it was there. I'm going to be fifteen. I'm going to be at the age where 'someone' saw me fall and laughing in silence. But I'm going to be fifteen and who cares with that 'someone'? I'm not living in revenge. You, are living in my hell.
Hi, my name is Nadira and separation is getting nearer.
Few months to go and we're gonna be separated by time and distance, beloved schoolmates. The 3 years we've been thru together, and every challenge we passed, and every sweat we've wasted for so long, just few months to go we are going to reach the limit. Final dari aktivitas suka dan duka, canda dan tangis, after 3 years we tried to reach the ability until the very end. Kata-katanya berlebihan, padahal selama 3 tahun belajarnya santai-santai aja, malahan kebanyakan lawaknya. 3 tahun untuk selamanya. Lawakan-lawakan gokil yang cuma 2011 yang tau dan ngakak sampe jumpalitan dengernya. Targetin sampe limit ya, biar semangatnya terpacu, semoga sukses, don't forget each other. Xx!
Hi, my name is Nadira and people is getting harder to believe.
I do believe in God for heavenly and worldly thingy and else. God's creatures I used to believe is anyone that close enough to me, but now, I believe no one. I just believe my dogs who still have brain and heart, even they're too unadorned to be a friend but at least, they listen to me when I tell them my story and keep it by themselves. So I believe them.
Hi, my name is Nadira and I'm loving myself.
You know, sometimes people make me wanted to be them, to be someone I am not. Maybe I admire their looks, or I spite their riches, it spins my head around and I'm trying to be a half me and a half them. But I found it difficult to be someone I am not, cause this is what I was born to be. I was born to be myself. To be honest, I used to envy teenagers who always go out with their friends every Saturday night, and I wasn't. I just stayed home with DVDs until night. I admired someone with fashionable looks, and I tried to be as fashionable as her but the result is big 0. The looks didn't fit on me. Because that wasn't me. And I found it good to stayed home with DVDs until night and make a little private party in my room with dolls and dogs until my room became a messy circus. Yeah, cause that was me! That was what I enjoy doing, I just realize it way too late. Love yourself, even others mock at you, at least they mock at you for who you are, instead of adore you for who you are not.
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