what you drive is what you are.

What's so effing good to be trusted by someone else? K, you proud, someone trusts you to do stuffs. But isn't it like accidentally giving you a responsibility to keep? Come on, it obviously relates.

I mean, ya, I don't have such an idea what the hell did I do, now they're giving THESE things to me, I look like an effing shock troops yet an event organizer, but I AM NOT. This kinda friggin' the hell outta me. I don't look like a kid who likes to make events, or even organize it, cause I already have so much stuffs to do, so.. much.. stuffs.. I was just a publisher, I published to those who want to come, but accidentally been the organizer too. It's getting kreyziii here.
Orang ngelapor, ayo bikin ini ini ini. Ok, gue bersedia mempublikasikan itu ke orang-orang. Tapi gue juga yang disuruh ngurusin. Ini hebat banget orang... I just don't have such spells to do it, like that time, right away. I wanted to be a man behind the scene of many great events, because I thought it's cool. Now I'm just a victim of my own words, my own desire.

Well don't tell me it sounds like I'm blaming you guys, who trust me to make things happen as you want. No, please, I really don't mean to. Ini tuh kayak curhat di blog pribadi, tapi bukan masalah percintaan, tapi permasalahan sosial yang rumit dan nyebelin.
Yea.. I mean, apa yang lo usahakan sedari dulu aja belom tentu bakalan terjadi, pasti ada kendalanya, apalagi yang cuma sekadar lo pengenin dan lo mimpiin aja. Don't expect only the goods but also the lacks, cause I did. And don't remind me what did happen to me after that.